BEAR UP!

Sometimes the pain is just unBEARable! Argh! =[

Pengalaman Itu Ibarat Seorang Guru

Cikgunya ramai tapi pelajarnya seorang sahaja...

Pelik kan?

Sebenarnya, cikgu yang dimaksudkan di sini bukanlah hanya tertakluk kepada orang yang mengajar kita tentang sesuatu secara rasmi sahaja.

Cikgu yang dimaksudkan di sini merangkumi aspek pengalaman.

Setiap manusia pasti ada pengalaman melakukan sesuatu dalam hidupnya.

Dan pengalaman itulah yang diibaratkan sebagai guru.

Maka pelakunya itu (kita/saya/awak) adalah pelajarnya.

Setiap perbuatan yang telah kita lakukan sepanjang tempoh kehidupan kita di atas muka bumi ini tidak kiralah sama ada kebaikan, kejahatan ataupun kesilapan pasti akan memberi serba sedikit pengajaran yang berharga.

Bak kata pepatah, "Pengalaman lalu mendewasakan kita."

(Erm,ini salah satu pengalaman juga rasanya...) =P

P/s: Hai, saya budak BENL & saya tidak mahu menjadi seorang cikgu. Sila ketepikan stereotaip awak. Terima kasih. =)

No Bitch No!

Keluasan/Kebebasan

DUA NAGA TIDAK BOLEH BERKONGSI LANGIT YANG SAMA!

Animal Instinct

If you have this:

Then I have this:

Don't worry. :)

FIGHT!

FIGHT! To forget the past...

FIGHT! To keep on surviving in the present...

FIGHT! To secure a better future...

Now or never and forever you should FIGHT!

Marla Singer

Pantulan Personifikasi

Senyap sunyi,
Suasana peribadi diiringi tiupan bayu tanpa bunyi,
Jiwa kosong didiami sepi,
Telatah terhenti tanpa sebarang erti.

Duka menjadi pendatang tanpa izin,
Tegar mencerobohi ruang kesedaran,
Hembusan nafas kian dingin,
Kondisi tercemar menjejas kestabilan.

Keraguan menjamah kebahagiaan,
Hati disuntik elemen kesulitan,
Setiap ketika dibuli tekanan,
Jiwa kacau dilanda kekalutan.

Genggam cermin hadapilah pantulan,
Gali masalah dan carilah saranan,
Sekian lama mengkaji duniawi,
Tiba masa mengenali diri.

Bisikan Kalbu

Terperangkap dalam sangkar kemurungan,
Dihidangkan cahaya melalui ruang yang dilupakan,
Mampukah aku masih menaruh harapan,
Menanti detik yang menjanjikan keriangan...

Menderita aku menagih perhatian,
Hidup sengsara mengharapkan belas kasihan,
Puncak paradigma dihujani tekanan,
Deria rasa dipertaruhkan dalam nukilan.

Kerinduan meruntuhkan ketabahan hati,
Ruang kewarasan dijajahi emosi,
Minda berlegar menuruti hati,
Dilanda ribut namun setia menanti...

Apabila jurang komunikasi mula terbatas,
Keresahan menusuki dengan pantas,
Hanyut sebentar dibuai arus deras,
Yakinlah bahawa cinta sejati akan terbalas!

Glazed Imperfection

This time my dear friends, I managed to complete writing an Italian (Petrarchan) sonnet! It was tough as I struggled to appease its demanding rhyme scheme which actually helps the flow of delivering the subliminal message in my poem. It sure felt great as this is quite a challenge I recently placed on myself to appreciate Literature. All thanks to Mrs. TJ who is currently teaching me 20th Century Literature this short semester! I truly am inspired in pursuing knowledge in the abstract fields of Literature! :D

Behold and feast your eyes on my sonnet entitled 'Glazed Imperfection'!

Take a sweet sip of destruction, (a)

Any kind of intentions can be quite deadly, (b)

Though few may grasp assumption certainly, (b)

For the cause is of no such reason, (a)

Make peace with your inner demon, (a)

Darkness within shall never disappear simply, (b)

Self-awareness is the most fitted key, (b)

To unlock the light that's hidden, (a)

Which song should we sing? (c)

Along this miserable quest, (d)

Towards an unknown place, (e)

To whom shall we cling? (c)

Before we are put to rest, (d)

Indeed we are truly far from grace... (e)

*Note that the brackets after each line within the poem above indicates the rhyme scheme. :)

Gecko!

You can call me 'Gecko'! 

Hurm,what the hell am I thinking??

It felt like it doesn't make any sense at all!

I think I'm serious. (Oh wait,there's doubt in my heart... Traitor.) 

Wait,where the hell that name came from??

Who cares... Do I look like I give a damn??

Probably no.

Oh never mind,it sounds nice after all...

(There is surely an identity crisis here somwhere...)

If Your Life Was A Stage...

This is a picture that is kinda related to my sonnet below... At least this is how I visualize it to be. :)

Kora Says...

Put on my shoes and walk straight toward where I'm heading or pick another path to discover what I'm missing.

The Dreaded Act

This is my very first attempt on creating an English sonnet or formerly know as the Shakespearean sonnet! Normally in most of my previous poems, I didn't even bother to follow any specific types of a formal poetry because I'm just to lazy to adhere to any sort of formalities. Yes, I do admit that I'm quite lazy even though I'm passionate about literature. So, on this wonderful day I sure am blessed by God and surprisingly motivated to create something by using the specific guidelines while fulfilling certain requirements. And it felt kinda good too! This is what I came up with and as usual your opinions or suggestions are most welcome. :D


Desperation clouded her rationality,
Tricked her blindly to play the part,
That was stolen from her recently,
Lust is what he hinted from the start...
Pity her fate oh that poor lady,
For life is a stage and this is a sneak preview,
Dramatic irony is a perceived tragedy,
Unknown to her while others helplessly view...
She belted a spectacular performance,
Amazes the unsuspecting crowd,
The highlight of the show was the epic romance,
Which was utterly wicked...

      Ignorantly he made her the second choice,
      Thus eternally she suffers without a voice...

A Prelude Towards Tragedy

When you say "Trust me,I'm RIGHT!"

Then without any respond the other person just LEFT!

Now that SUCKS big time! What happens after that is a series of misfortunes.

Damn.

Shame on you!

Health & Happiness

I'm always sick somewhere and somehow so being healthy was never actually an option. Well, according to the thinking of a few blessed people, they somewhat agree to a point that states the case of being healthy does not necessarily concern with the well-being of the mind (mental) or the body (physical). Instead, it's all within the happiness of the soul! Whoa... (O.O)

Ace

Play your cards right and you'll find out what I'm thinking about...

Betrayal!

Hahaha,teringat kat Naqib Ahmad bila sebut perkataan yg menjadi topik sensasi hari ni. Baiklah, semua orang ada kawan/kenalan/rakan/sahabat dan sebagainya lagi. Ya, tanpa rakan mana mungkin kita mampu menghadapi hari-hari mendatang dengan sendiri. Oh,sudah besar kan boleh berdikari?? Hurm, betul gak tu sayang tapi sampai bila awak boleh tahan hidup camtu? Mesti bosan kan? Hehe berbalik kepada tajuk. Kawan ni penting dan sebab tu kita kena pilih kawan yang baik. Memang kita boleh berkawan dengan semua orang tapi kita harus pilih orang-orang yang baik untuk didampingi agar hidup kita pun baik juga insya-Allah. :)

Bak kata pepatah, "Berkawan dengan tukang besi,kau akan terkena api manakala berkawan dengan penjual minyak wangi nescaya dirimu berbau wangi sekali."

Maksudnya ialah apabila kita berada didalam kelompok rakan yang sesuai, nescaya keselamatan,budi pekerti dan akhlak sesama manusia kita terjamin. Jika sebaliknya, memang selamanya kita akan sesat berjalan tanpa tujuan dan hidup tanpa wawasan sambil berjalan di persimpangan hidup yang malang. Simpang malaikat 44 ya. Hurm, sungguhpun begitu memilih kawan yang baik bukanlah semudah yang disangka. Rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain-lain! Aduyai, camne tu? Masalah gak ni. Tapi jangan risau, selagi kita kenal diri kita dan sentiasa ikhlas dalam persahabatan tu maka diharap semuanya berjalan lancar.

Bila kawan menjadi lawan... Jeng jeng jeng... Hahahaha! Itu yang kita risau tu! Ibarat musuh dalam selimut, kita akan ditikam dari belakang secara sembunyi dan tanpa disedari. Oh taktik keji... Kawan jadi lawan ada, kawan makan kawan ada, kawan guna kawan ada, kawan jatuhkan kawan pun ada! Banyak betul pilihan macam nak jawab ujian akhir semester lak! Skema habis doe! Yelah, siapa je yang suka ditikam dari belakang kan? Bodoh. Jadi, jangan sesekali terpedaya dengan helah duniawi ni. Kita mesti berjaga-jaga. Kawan yang kenal bertahun lama pun belum tentu setia. Untunglah aku ada mata kat belakang sebegini rupa:

Ya, aku tahu. Aku mampu melihat segala helah keji kalian. Pisau yang kau guna kat untuk tikam belakang aku masih tersisip rapi di bahagian belakang tubuhku. Bukan aku tidak endah, aku sebenarnya kisah tapi aku lebih suka menganggap perbuatan itu sebagai 'hadiah' pemberian kau. Memberi kan lebih baik dari menerima... Aku terima je. Takde hal weyh. Lumrah hidup lah ni kononnya. Hukum karma pun boleh gak. Tapi apa yang aku kesal ialah kenapa kau tak berani cakap depan-depan? Kita bukan baru sehari dua kenal. Dah bertahun kot! Kalau tak puas hati kasi cakap dan tunjuk depan aku sebab baru aku tau apa sebenarnya masalah kau. Taktik keji macam bangsat gak kau pilih. Salah aku gak kot sebab salah pilih kawan macam kau.

"Real friends stab you in the front." -Jonathan Davis.

If you have issues that's been bothering you please get your pathetic ass up and come up to me. I'll wait for you any time and any day! Just bring it on! I'm always ready. I was born ready and hell yeah I'm fucking steady. LOL. xD

That Person,This Moment

Hey it's you...
Yeah,just YOU!
I'm glad that we coincidently knew each other.
Maybe it's destiny...
Or fate perhaps...
This journey is becoming interesting.
How could that possibly be?
Lots of things going on currently...
But a chance of bumping into you was never a plan.
Nor a personal request.
Well,you know me...
Expecting nothing as hopes might actually provoke disappointment.
Wait,this is something different...
You are nothing of the ordinary.
You're weird! A twisted one of a kind person!
No! Don't get me wrong...
That's a good thing actually.
Wanna know why?
Because normal is so damn boring!
Something different is a wonderful surprise!
A treat to my zero expectations.
One in a million,you're the one I'm keeping my eyes on.

The picture above is from the movie 'Fight Club' staring Brad Pitt & Edward Norton.
That moment is very inspiring. Do enjoy the movie. It's damn good.
P/s: You know who you are. (Marla Singer)

Problem?

Why are you so different??

Oh the dreaded FAQ...

So here's a few quotes as a friendly reply:

"I never said to be like me, I say to be like you and make a difference." -Marilyn Manson.

"I don't care what people think or say about me, I know who I am." -Jonathan Davis.

"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain.

"What you see is what you get!" -Xzibit.

"You laugh at me because I'm different, I laugh at you because you're all the same." -Jonathan Davis.

"I never said I was a role model." -Natalie Portman.

"I am whatever you say I am; if I wasn't, then why would you say I am." -Eminem.

"I'm a reflection of the community." -Tupac Shakur.

"I am the greatest, I said that even before I knew I was." -Muhammad Ali.

"I'm a part of the problem but the problem is that I'm peaceful." -Lupe Fiasco.

"I'm one tough act to follow and you better hold on to my shadow." -M.K.III.

Educate Me

KNOWLEDGE IS THE KEY TO LIFE! 

WHY??

This is simply because with the proper knowledge, we can truly grasp the meaning of life, discover the purpose of our creation in this temporary world and finally obtain the truth based on reason plus revelation.

KNOWLEDGE IS LIGHT! 

WHY??

When we were born, we are actually enclosed in total darkness. We didn't have a single clue on what to do with our life, who we would become, what we are going to do, what path are we going to take and so forth... With the help of knowledge, we will surely be enlightened and trust me that we can shine even in the darkest days and glow seamlessly in those lonely nights!

KNOWLEDGE IS POWER! 

WHY??

The existence of various branch of knowledge can possible help us go through our daily routines with breeze. Certain knowledge may also grant us the ability to perform a somewhat impossible task in the eyes of a mere uneducated mortal. Always remember that what you learn today can save you from the dangers of tomorrow!

Eyes On You

WHAT YOU NEED TO HAVE: 

MONEY, IDENTITY & PERSONALITY!

WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN:

MORALITY, RATIONALITY & ADAPTABILITY!

THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED TO HAVE:


MONEY, IDENTITY & PERSONALITY!

THIS IS WHAT YOU NEED TO LEARN:


MORALITY, RATIONALITY & ADAPTABILITY!

Cerita Budak Itu & Budak Ini

Budak itu sehangat bahang mentari,

Budak ini sedamai cahaya purnama di malam hari.

Budak itu cantik raut wajahnya,

Budak ini kelihatan selekeh rupanya.

Budak itu bijak belajar,

Budak ini pantang dicabar.

Budak itu pemalu orangnya,

Budak ini gemar berjenaka.

Budak itu selesa mengunci mulutnya,

Budak ini pandai menyusun kata-kata.

Budak itu suka menjamu selera,

Budak ini terbatas cita rasanya.

Budak itu selalu di rumah bersama keluarga,

Budak ini rajin keluar mengembara.

Budak itu mendalami ilmu alam,

Budak ini bermimpi mencari ilham.

Budak itu telah membuka hatinya setelah sekian lama,

Budak ini dengan berani meluahkan cinta.

Budak itu terima seadanya,

Budak ini bersyukur kepada Maha Pencipta.

Demi Allah mereka akan kekal bahagia bersama,

Mengapa kamu tanya?

Kerana inilah kisah AKU & DIA! (^_^)

(Khas untuk Tajul Atiqah)

Setsuna

It's a myth...
A forbidden fantasy...
Something which is too good to be true...
Yet, it is imaginable...
It seems promising...

IT'S A JAPANESE WORD WHICH MEANS A MOMENT OR AN INSTANT.

Why it comes to my concern?

Simply because it somehow related to beneficial kinds of thoughts that appear to be brilliant at first in a split second and later vanishes into thin air as soon as we realize it to be quite impossible. That's the Setsuna Effect!

We can grasp a mental image of Setsuna by remembering remarkable visual and technologically infused creations such as Tron Legacy and The Matrix. Both of those fascinating works portrayed a futuristic views of digital life... Life which is extraordinary! Life which is beyond normal... The kind of life that we look forward to sooner or later in the future... Will it be possible? Who knows...

The idea of Setsuna first came through my mind while reading a Japanese manga entitled "Majin Tantei Nogami Neuro." Somewhere within that twisted story, it focuses on a minor character with a huge ambition. Sounds weird but this is the interesting part. This particular character is a mad scientist blessed with impressive knowledge and skills in handling technological stuff etc. Nerds will bow to his awesomeness! LOL! Okay, with that in mind, we moved on to learn eventually that he used his abilities to create a parallel universe and slip within it in order to become immortal! Sounds quite typical... But no... His real intention is quite noble as what he really wants to do is to be with his beloved (which he failed to saved, due to her incurable sickness). Awhhh sweet. :)

Setsuna is a parallel universe which he created using binary codes of a computer (the number 0 and 1), mixed with unexplainable sorts of metaphysical madness that abnormally allows him to reformat his and her life back into that digital world. It is mindfucking twisted but the idea is quite plausible. It also shows that a man will go to perform any necessary actions within his capabilities just to fight for the rights to be together with his beloved! That's a symbol of true love yo!

Setsuna is the slip between the number 0 and 1. It might be similar to this: 0.000000000000000000001!
It is never ending. They are digitally made by numbers and as long as the number wouldn't change between 0 and 1, forever they will remain together. Not even death will tear them apart. (THIS IS ALL FICTIONAL!)

So, that is my inspiration in creating this poem.

Mesmerized

Feeling astound

I'm frozen under the spotlight of Heaven

In the eye of storm I lay benign

For Fate put me in this position

This is a point of no return

Discarded from Paradise

To suffer in this cold sphere

These dark hands grow lengthy just to reach me

So let it be...

Chained to heavy responsibilities

Equipped with slightly imperfect tools

Limited to certain capabilities

Restricted by a handful of rules

A product of pleasure

Born only to suffer

Redemption is worthwhile

As refutation is futile

The robes of death nearly covering you

Beg for mercy, will thou?

Rise upon the pinnacle of success

Only to find loneliness

Sending signal of distress

To whom will you confess?

Gather fragment of past memories

Stitching up those rotten wounds

Figure out your own enigmas

Time to solve these cases

Look into the mirror honestly

Is it really yourself that you see?

Dive into reality

Embrace the gift of Your Majesty

Plot your path discreetly

Discover happiness within misery

Slip in between Setsuna

The promising vision of this era

Fit into the infinite point of perfect one and zero

Similar to The Matrix but without Neo.

And this is my vision of Setsuna...

Mawar Berduri

Sekuntum mawar merah berseri,

Indah rupanya dilindungi duri,

Wahai adinda pujaan hati,

Jagalah dirimu dengan rapi.

Maths!

You're my favorite maths problem...

Why??

Because I simply just can't get over you! LOL. xD

Yummy Yum Yum!

READ MY LIPS

AND

YOU SHALL EAT

MY

WORDS...

Wordplay 101

If you can read between the lines, you can see that I want you... <3

Romeo & Juliet

Don't you ever call me 'ROMEO' if you're not my 'JULIET'!

I'm A Poet!

I'm a poet so you better watch my words! :p

I don't need any kind of brooms to sweep you off your feet. Words are more than enough. :D

At the touch of LOVE, everyone becomes a POET. -Plato-

Forsaken Chivalry

Shine upon this fragile world

where everything seems to fall apart

faiths disappearing though few may hold

enter Lady Starlight

Gaia indeed is your Garden

overflowing with delicate floras and charming roses

beneath these wonders lies a humble burden

for the path she walks on was full of vicious thorns

Damsel in distress she was

but to God she always pray

alone in suffocating darkness

waiting patiently for someone to save her from dismay

Bless her noble heart

For her prayer is finally answered

The Almighty God delivers a knight

Precious tears are no longer shed

Alienated from the deceitful crowd

Forsake them for her he will, soon

To her aid ultimately he must attend

enter The Knight Of The Silver Moon

To be continued... :)

My World, Your Sanity

In this world of uncertainty,

It's relatively easy to lose your sanity,

Supported by constant conflict between friends and family,

This is a fucked up reality.

Chronology Of Kora

Once upon a time there was nothing but madness...

A promising beginning is available,

Different entities mingles among themselves in the society,

Thus creating harmony...

However, in spite of destiny,

The evil within human heart surprisingly present,

Wasting no time plotting a demonic conspiracy,

To inject suffering,

To the unsuspecting yet pathetic weakling...

Tables are indeed turned,

This is where certain ignorant entities became a liability,

Trouble is brewing,

Chaos is stirring...

A tragedy in the making,

Here is the make or break decision,

Are you strong enough to move forward?

Or are you comfortable living in the dark?

Light is bestowed upon people who search throughly for it,

Then you'll find your way,

Life is a journey,not a destination.

Once again will you pass the forgotten path,

From there onwards you will be on the point of no return...

Simply because,

There is no happy endings.

I Can Smell Your Fear...

She screams...
Honestly expressing her hidden pains,
Beneath the pale moonlit skin of hers,
Trembling were the thoughts of suffering...


Beware child,
For the flowers that you pluck emits a sensual smell,
Laced with fear,
Lingering around the hazardous tips of emotional warmth...


The dreaded tears,
The soft heartbreaking whispers,
The layers of sweet embedded lies,
The pain continues...


Suicide is what she screams of daily,
It's also what she screams silently,
Death seems almost relevant,
The perfect conclusion to this misserable event.

Divine Blessing

Fall into favors,

Life is excitingly unpredictable,

Believe and thou shall receive,

God's greatest gift!

Satu Orang Sepuluh Rupa

Mari buka sebuah cerita

Sini suatu tempat istimewa

Ada suka ada duka

Satu orang sepuluh muka

Dengan hormat aku bertanya

Engkau siapa?

Peliknya rupa

Matlamatmu apa?

Diam-diam ubi berisi

Semua persoalan ditolak tepi

Buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih

Kalau hebat usah berdalih

Alang kepalang lintang pukang

Tidak tersangka aral melintang

Kewujudanmu senantiasa diselebungi bayang

Adakah syaitan menjadi dalang?

Tersimpul tali, terikat lidah

Salah sangka justeru terhentilah madah

Bersua muka tetapi terlupa nama

Senyuman pun tidak lagi bermakna

Badan bagaikan boneka

Emosi palsu belaka

Engkau sememangnya tidak sempurna

Persis dusta ibu kota

Minda mula bercelaru

Jiwa semakin serabut

Otak pula mejadi buntu

Pada apa engkau berpaut?

Muka diconteng arang, aku dimalukan

Dijadikan pula sebagai batu loncatan

Untuk menggapai cita-cita dan impian

Tipu helah sanggup kau gunakan

Pakar pembelit cerita 

Mulut rakyat bersuara terbuka

Di tengah ibu kota dusta

Engkau dipuja bagaikan idola

Ibarat garam bercampur cuka

Mengapa perlu bermasam muka?

Ragammu terkenal seluruh dunia

Namun peribadimu sehina paria

Kisah lama usah diungkit

Itu namanya mencari penyakit

Kerana mulut badan yang sakit

Kerana kau, orang lain terbabit

Kesetiaan wujud berlandaskan percaya

Hubungan kukuh tanpa derita

Mengapa perlu rosakkan semua

Hasad dengki pemusnah segala...

Suicide Silence

Your silence is like a hollow bullet that pierces right through my heart leaving a hole of emptiness...

_____,,___________________
../ `--||||||||-----------------------]- - - - - - - - ░ ▒▓▓█D
./_==o___________________|
...),---.(_(__) /
../ -----/
/____/

My Fairytale

Once upon a time there was nothing but madness...?